Sunday, August 24, 2008
They told me on Thursday that LP would start unsupervised visits. This really sucks. I love LP. I love her with all my heart. She is my daughter. I don't care if someone else carried her for 9 months. She is mine. But the state says 'No she's not. She is yours to love and bond with so that she may have a hope of having a normal life. But don't get attached. She really isn't yours.' I feel like I am sending my child into the lions den. I can rationalize. I can tell myself it will be ok. But it just doesn't cut it. I cried when they told me and I will cry when I leave her. This is the part I hate. This just sucks.