Cravings

I have been having cravings this pregnancy. I never really did with LM. I have been craving sweet, salty, cakey, crunchy, spicey, greasy (which always gets me in trouble), and just plain weird food. SO far no combination of weird food. One minute I want nothing to do with a food and then the next I have to have it. Weird.

In other news, Pilot is gone. He was home last night but left around 1:30pm today. I miss him this time. I know that sounds bad. I miss him in general when he is gone. But for some reason I really miss him this time around. He is such a pain in the butt sometimes. But he really loves me and I love him. Some might say we deserve each other. Mostly because we are both pains in the butt. I would never admit that......

Monkeys

I do not have kids. I have monkeys. They climb on everything. I can't stop them! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Also I have a video moniter in BAB's room so when she gets up to play instead of sleep I can see her. Hee hee hee. Anyways, I watch her when she is in there playing with the babies. If she is naughty I tell her to not do whatever she is doing. I love the reaction. She looks around like where is she?!?!?!?!? Hee hee hee.....

Spring is coming soon?

Sheila is shedding already. Which is WAY early. So yesterday I had high hopes yesterday that maybe, just maybe spring was coming soon. Until I looked outside today. Yuck, yuck and double yuck. I went to the city today for some much needed groceries and to pick up LP. I am just glad that I am back home and I am NOT going back out until it stops snowing. Or I go stir crazy. Either way.

Pilot, heart beats, and beef

Pilot is coming home tonight. And can I just say "Thank GOD!" This weekend seemed to be at least 8 times longer then it really was. I think I may be a little stir crazy as well.

In other news, I went to the OB for the first time today. I heard the heart beat. It was faint, but it was there. Everything was good. I have a prescription for the infamous honking huge prenatals and a bag of pregnancy magazines. I really do love my doctor. She is wonderful. My formal due date it Aug. 19th. Although I had to have an emergency c-section for the last one so this will be to. So the August 19th date really isn't the day I will actually 'deliver'. I am getting a little more excited about this pregnancy. I heard the heart beat and I am feeling like this baby is for real. Its kinda weird like that for me. Sometimes it takes me a while for things to actually sink in.

I have a freezer full of beef. We buy 1/4 of a cow every once in a while. The shipment came in today. We have a huge freezer so we keep Tj and Bruce's (Pilot's brother and SIL) beef for them. They just come and 'shop' in our freezer when they need meat! Hee hee.

Nap time

This is why I like nap time so much. It is quiet. From the time my 2 year old gets up to the time she goes down she is either talking nonstop, screaming, or crying. And its usually that order. She wakes up and talks nonstop. Then she inevitably starts screaming which ALWAYS gets her in time out but she still does it. Then we get to hear a serenade of crying while she gets ready for bed. And there is usually crying dabbled in there all over in general.

A van

Pilot has promised me a van. About time. I, however, am working on getting a Tahoe or the new Traverse. I want 4 wheel drive. I live in the middle of nowhere and would like to be able to leave my garage with out getting stuck immediately. And yes that has happened before. He, however, is a tight wad. So the likes of me ever getting a big vehicle with all wheel drive is pretty much down the drain. I apparently have no idea what I need. Who knew?

Boring weekend

Pilot is gone this weekend. My mom is gone this weekend. I'm bored. I am stuck home with 3 little girls. There is no way I am going to even try and go out with them alone. They are just all to young for me to be able to do anything with out stressing myself out. It just wouldn't be worth it. It just wouldn't.

Dutch strikes again

Today I had to head out for LM's 1 year well baby visit. I was running late and left Sheila outside. Hey, she is part husky she should stop being a wuss and play in the snow! Anyway, so Dutch was over as well. When I got back they had managed to open my door and both were in my house playing with the babies stuffed animals. Gross.

Dutch

......the neighbor dog. He likes to come over and play with Sheila (my dog). And that's fine. Except he jumps on my door and tries to come in. AND if anybody comes to visit he growls at them! I'm like 'Really!' I have enough problems making sure my dog doesn't eat anybody! Oh well, at least he doesn't try to eat my children! And also he likes to bark. Incessantly. Which I'm sure annoys my other neighbors. I deal with until I can't any more and then I call his owner. In fact I finally just programed his phone number in my cell. Its under Dutch. Why not? I think I call him more then my sister.

The SW is leaving and a new one is taking over the case. I have never directly worked with him before. However I have seen him in the office and have a friend who works with him now so I know what he looks like. I happened to see him in a parking lot the other day with another social worker that I happen to know as well. I waved at them and they waved back. The new social worker looking slightly like "crazy lady waving at 3 o'clock. Just wave so she leaves us alone." So I emailed him and said it was me that waved at him and not some crazy lady as he probably meets some um.... interesting people in his field of work. This is a direct quote from his email.


"No, my part of the conversation with (other social worker I know) was, "Look, that lady is waving at us. She looks really familiar." My interpretation of (other social worker I know)'s reply is, "That's Leslie (last name deleted), you idiot. You've seen her in the office a million times." Then I said, "Oh, yeah. I do know her."

I think I am going to get along just nice with the new SW.

the gorious sun

OK, I saw the sun today. It was very heartwarming. I even think I cracked a smile.

And Also

I AM SO SICK OF THE SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am moving to Honduras or possibly Belize. I am so freaking depressed. If I don't see the sun soon I am leaving on a jet plane. Don't know when I'll be back......

I feel little again

My daddy yelled at me tonight. I felt like I was 8 yrs old again. I almost cried too. Honest. Ok, so I may be exaggerating a little. He 'sternly' talked to me about having a land line phone in the house. We are all wireless. We have cell phones only and wireless internet. Pilot does not want to have another bill a month. Which leads me to other rants, but I digress. I am still in a mood about my daddy 'sternly' talking to me so I will save those for later. I'm afraid this would become a whole post about the things that bug me about Pilot. I will go to my corner and cry now......

Oh the guilt

The DHS office must be short on foster parents. They have called me twice in the past 2 weeks. I feel so guilty, but had to say no to both placements. I have 3 girls 2 and 1/2 yrs old and younger plus one on the way. I just feel like I would be doing an injustice to the kids I already have and to my unborn baby to add any more stress. But I think the guilt is killing me more! I want to just take in all the little kids and save them all. I know I can't do that. I know.........

The plane crash

I'm sure everybody has heard about the plane crash in the NY Hudson river.... But in case you haven't here is a link -NY plane crash

What in the....... Oh whatever......

Well, 4 babies later and one on the way I have gotten to that point where you just let most things slide. You know when you see a mother of 3 pass by and her kids are punching each other in the face and she is quietly humming to herself as she seemingly is enjoying looking at a piece of fabric. And the thought 'Why is she letting her children give each other black eyes??? crosses your mind..... Well, I'll tell you why. Because she is sick of yelling at her kids and figure that if A.) they are not killing each other and B.) they are not killing anybody else they are fine. They will eventually learn that giving each other black eyes is not fun!

The Theater, How Dramatic

GG (my sister-in-law) and I went to the movies a couple of nights ago. We wanted to get some popcorn. There was a board with 'specials' on it. They were all numbered except the last one. This one was the 'couples' special. We were the only ones at the theater except those working behind the booth. We get to the counter and decide to get the couples special to save money. So I say 'we will do the couples special.' Then it got eerily silent except the screaming in my head 'That sounded gay!' It gets weird and more awkard as the silence continues. Then I blurted out "SHE IS MY SISTER IN LAW' Kinda like in Moulin Rouge when the duke is waiting for the Satin and Harold Zigler yells "SHE'S CONFESSING". *sigh* So embarrassing!

LM's 1 yrs old!

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was in denial. But we had the party yesterday. There are pictures. Proof that my baby is not a baby anymore!!!! She had fun desimating her cupcake.... and then another one...... She had lots of fun and received lots of fun gifts! Thanks everybody!

Mexico accident

Sometimes Pilot goes to Mexico for his work overnights. He doesn't like it. I mean they don't go to the nice resorty places. They go to little known places in the middle of nowhere. An unmarked car picks them up and takes them to a hotel. Hardly anybody speaks english. Its just not conformable. I have never been to Mexico, but have been to 3rd world countries many a time. I know that traffic is awful in usually. There is no rules. Stopping is optional, if you want to pass you just go no matter what, if you are the biggest car then you have the right of way, and nobody wheres seat belts. It is just plain crazy. So when I heard a crew was in a bad accident down there it was not a surprise. Then Pilot told me that one of them was someone that commuted from the same airport as him and I knew him. Then it was really sad. I guess someone rearended the hotel car/van and none of them where wearing seatbelts. He flew up to the roof, fell on the FA and then on the floor. He ruptured a couple discs in his back and was in extreme pain. Everybody else was ok though. I'm assuming scrapes and bruises though for them. He is back home safe and sound. Poor guy! Get well!

no more snow

I think I am going to go on strike until there is no more snow. What exactly I'm going to strike with is up for debate. I was thinking food, but then I decided that since I was pregnant that wasn't a good idea. And then I was thinking no baths, but then about an hour after I woke up I couldn't even stand myself and ran for the shower. Then I had the brilliant idea that I was just going to pretend that the snow didn't exist. So I went to my local superstore with a sweat shirt and nothing else. I think I might have frostbite on my left ear.....

sudden case of the chubbies

I am almost 10 weeks preggos. I am at that stage when it doesn't really show pregnant. Just more chub. Especially if you aren't a little skinny minnie like me. The things woman do for our children. It will be worth it!

Ohhh..... come back.....

Have you ever had a day when you know you are in a bad mood. But you really can't help it. It is like everything is piling on. You are saying mean things and you just can't stop the words that come out of your mouth? And then you find your self trying to shove them back in your mouth while uttering 'ohhhhhh....come back.....' This morning was one of them. I am noticing a theme. It is mornings. Maybe I am not getting enough sleep. I don't know.... I just can't sleep at night anyways. When I am pregnant I get insomnia. Sleep is not over rated!

fun

Ok I got this on an email and thought maybe this would kick start my fun!


What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
Had a baby!


Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't think I made any. I was just glad to be alive most of the year!



Did anyone close to you die?
No, i guess not.....


What countries did you visit?
United States..... ok so I already live there. :)


What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
Peace in my life and FUN!


What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Jan. 1oth. When my Little Miss was born.


What was your biggest achievement of the year?
um...... Staying alive... Oh OH OH OH Staying Aliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiive.... Do the disco...Ok sorry


What was your biggest failure?
um.... can't exactly remember.. Don't get me wrong. I am sure there was some.


Did you suffer illness or injury?
No thank GOD!


What was the best thing you bought?
My new house!


Where did most of your money go?
The babies!


What song will always remind you of 2008?
i guess really none. I don't think I really had time to even listen to music!


What do you wish you'd done more of?
traveling. having fun. getting out.


What do you wish you'd done less of?
worrying


What was your favorite TV program?
i guess none


Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
no. I may dislike a few people here and there.... but hate is a strong word


What was the best book you read?
Well, sad to say it was the Twilight series. I know i'm lame.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
lullabies!


What was your favorite film of this year?
none

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I honestly can't remember.....


What kept you sane?
Knowing my family depended on me.

Who did you miss?
Some friends that fell of the face of the earth.

Who was the best new person you met?
i can't remember meeting anybody new this year...

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
God has a reason and time for everything.

2 More!

I was called yesterday by DHS to place 2 more kids. I actually thought about it.......for 30 seconds and then I said no. And then for the next 24 hours I felt guilty. Really guilty. And then I thought about it again and decided I made the write decision. I really want to help out, I do. BUT I can only do what I can do. They did not try to pressure me. But as soon as I said no they were very quick to get off the phone! Call the next in line. Very sad. It is very sad to me that the lives of these poor children are in the hands of so many. *sigh*

Review

Ok, so I did a review my last couple of months or so of my blog. I am boring. When did I become so boring? I think it was sometime between no sleep and dieing of boredom. So I have decided that as my New Years resolution (which I don't believe in..:) I am going to be much happy and have more fun. We will see how that goes.....

Must reiterate

Ok, so yes, I am pregnant. I am 9 weeks along. I am very happy that I am pregnant. I think I am having a hard time telling people because the latest round up in my house is BAB (2 1/2 yrs old), LM (almost 1 yrs old in 3 days), and LP (9 months old). Most people think I am crazy. And I am. But it just kinda happened. And don't get me wrong, I am very happy it happened. Five years of infertility and I would be happy if I was having triplets at this point. I just get so tired of people saying "you're going to be busy' and various other things.... Like I don't know that. I don't know. I guess people just have to say something. Not to mention the saucer size eyes when they find out. I guess just a little spout.... Anyways, all is going well with the pregnancy just like last time. I don't think that I will have any problems. I am excited to have another baby. I am a little more grouchy this time around. Not really sure why........ I am definitaly not in as good as shape as the last time. Which makes me sad. I want to try and go to the gym, but I never seem to find the time. Woe is me and all that junk. Whatever.

Top things I never thought I would say

1. Leave the dog's butt alone.
2. Boings stay out of your bedroom.
3. Don't scratch the hematoma off your sister's back
4. Chew on your chewy BAB.
5. Eat your horse radish, BAB.

I'm pregnant

Just so you all know.

BAB's funnies

I'd like to take a minute to tell a few stories about BAB. Keep in mind that she is 2.

Today we over to my mom's to eat lunch. This is a tricky time for my kids because it seems that after lunch it is nap time. We were doing ok though. Except for BAB's incessant talking while we were eating. Now I usually tell her to eat her food 20 times during lunch so that I can eat in peace most of the time. Instead I let her go. My mom was 'listening'. I wanted to see how long it took her to loose it. Eventually she told BAB that she better stop talking and eat her food. Well this lasted about a minute. Not very long. So I looked over at her and said "BAB please stop talking to Grandma and eat your food." She then leaned over her food and whispered, "I'll talk to my self." and then continued to babble quietly to herself. My mom and I were stifling giggles under our breathe by this time.


Earlier that day we were getting ready to go to my mom's house. I told her to get her boots and coat on. So she sits on the floor and places the boot on top of her foot and gives it a couple of waps. I was busy getting the babies ready at this point. So I turned to her and said "BAB, I know you can put your boots on. Please put them on." and I was nice about it...... By the time I got the babies around she still was diddling with her boots. So I said "ok, I guess you can stay here." Of course the crying insued, but I did not hear as I went out the door with baby number 1. I came back in and she magically had her boots on AND buckled with her coat on. Hmmmmm....... I thought 2 year olds were supposed to want to do things on there own? If I would do everything for her like a baby still she would let me. This I don't understand. OY!

going to bed early

Pilot left me here with the girls to go play cards with the guys. I'm not feeling the best. Soooo..... Because it is Pilot's turn to get the kids up in the morning..... I'm putting them to bed early. Hee hee Revenge is sweet.